Monday, April 6, 2009

All is well

All is well, but I still have to tell my harrowing tale. I woke up to more spotting, but not as much. I waited to see how the morning progressed. At 11:00, it was still there, so I called the nurses' line at my OB/GYN practice to very calmly explain to the voice recorder what was happening. ( I really was calm. I was relatively OK at this point.) I expected them to call back and say "this happens, keep an eye on it, blah blah blah." SO, when they called back and said to come in for an internal exam and ultrasound....yup, I started to get scared. In fact, at one point I had to find the rational part of my brain in order to calm myself down, because between the buckets of rain and my equally diluvian tears, neither one of us was going to make it to the hospital in one piece. Why does my brain always go to the worst case scenario? In horrible detail? 

When she first put the wand on my belly, I experienced a few hour-long seconds where I just saw a fetus floating at the bottom of my uterus. Not moving. I think the doc pushed or prodded, and then I saw hands (yes, Virginia, they aren't just buds anymore) flail and feet kick! All is well in womb-land. We heard the heartbeat again, and I understood in that moment why women rent doppler devices-but I have decided this would be a bad idea for me, basically b/c I would, um...obsess! Cause for bleeding? A low placenta, but not quite placenta previa.

What I have learned: I didn't realize that when you got off the IF roller coaster that they strap you down to the tilt-a whirl...or maybe it's the music express. Nausea and dizziness and being scared? All can be yours for the cost of admission. 
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  1. I totally understand what you are dealing with. I woke up at 3:30am last night to red blood (not spotting). I called my Dr at 6:30 am and she sent me for an ultrasound. She said that sometimes around the time that your period is due you have a collection of blood that builds up and that ends up passing out of you. My baby looked fine. I will be 11 weeks on Friday. This pregnancy is through IVF.


  2. Thinking of you, and gave you a big fat sisterhood award on my blog (to be posted shortly). Thanks for being there for me, over and over again. Hope all is well with you and your little one.

  3. yeah it really doesn't get any less stressful, just maybe a little less...empty. so glad things are just fine in there, and hope you get to lounge lazily around the amusement park for a while!!